Well, you've made your point Adam. It has been made clear that you no longer want me in your life. 2 months and 2 days of silence. I mean, what does it say about me, when someone needs to take a break from me and then never comes back (I know you're not dead (yay!)...that I verified)? How much do I suck that someone would want to do that? I guess there's no respect at all for me. Not an email, instant message, text, personalized song calling me names...nothing. You could have blocked my number or email immediately after sending something to let me know that you're not coming back. Something, anything to tell me that I'm out of your life. Would it have broken my heart? Of course, but that's what's going on with me now, but at least some sort of notification would have given me closure and prevented me from hoping and anxiously checking skype and the other methods you've been given info of. You know my imagination. You've left me to my own devices to figure out what I did wrong and when. Pondering our conversations to figure out when lies overcame truth..when we stopped being friends. I feel like a fool. Carrying on as if everything was okay and still talking with you, thinking that you cared for what I was saying to you. I just am having so much difficulty understanding why you would not have the least bit of respect for me to let me know how you truly felt. So say your truth and then to actually say goodbye. Unless maybe you hated me? Or are disgusted by me? See? Thoughts are all over the place. Maybe you really are the villain and enjoy causing me more distress and pain? I had pegged you for being kind and a good guy. Maybe I was blind. I guess I can't get to know someone like I had hoped when it's 90% faceless. We had experienced so much for so long, I thought we were close. At least enough to be mindful. I valued you. Probably too much as this evidence suggests.
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