Lost

I lost you today.  Estrella put you in a position that made our friendship impossible and you rightfully chose her.  I knew I was always disposable, but I guess I never thought I'd actually be thrown out.  I mean you and I were so close.  I could talk about anything with you and I felt comfortable doing so.  I hope that you thought of me like that.  You were a little vague on things sometimes.  I know I will soon be a distant memory and forgotten, but you were of deep significance to me.  You formed me into the woman I am.  You fanned my creative and sexual side and taught me about possibilities that seemed to transcend my human confines.  I haven't written in here in a long while.  I guess today will also be my last.  I will forever be grateful for your friendship, warmth, and play.  I will love you forever.  Goodbye.