Okay, I'm weak. I signed on today and wished you a Happy Birthday. You had responded yesterday about the time I did my little prayer. You just said you understood, were processing, and that you always wish me the best. You're always so detached it seems. I mean not fully detached but formal and cordial I suppose. What did I expect? You to come gushing, begging for me to come back? No, but I certainly would LOVE it if you did beg me to come back. ;)
I did fairly well yesterday. I only checked your twitter, instagram, and facebook to see if you had updated anything. It's hard since we're not friends on any of them. haha Today I signed on. Man this is tough. I don't know what is going to happen by me doing this. I of course hope that you decide to open up to me and being my into your embrace. But it's probably just going to make you withdraw more when you talk to me. IF you talk to me. Heck you might decide that this is too taxing and leave. God what have I done? Is this worth it? Is this the right thing? At the time, leaving felt right. I knew it wouldn't be long (technically not even a day hahahaha). I just don't know what to do.
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