"What confuses me is...I've said that phrase a few times now. Mostly in my 'books' and you've never had such a reaction. It didn't break things. Now it feels things are broken.
I've felt like this for years Aaron and I thought you were aware of that, it's nothing new, but for some reason it is to you it seems.
You say you aren't sure you want to take on the responsibility. What have you been doing then?
You connect with me at night sometimes and imagine us being close...what is that? How could that even happen if you didn't feel something similar?
You also mentioned that you are fine with love just not a romantic aspect of it. I kind of get where you're coming from on that, but I am going to put it this way...
To be healthy, to ready the vessel ;-), you have to get good sleep (ha!), eat well, exercise and/or move well, and also exercise your mind and creativity. To exclude one could be detrimental or at least incomplete.
Do you follow?
The vibration or frequency of affection I have for you is at a different and lower rate than my husband.
Maybe this is why the Tower card kept coming to me. Maybe it wasn't referring to myself at all, but to us.
I've got a few other thoughts but they wouldn't be productive in finding any resolution and more than likely hinder more than help, so I'm going to stop adding to the queue for when/if you come back. I think you're closed now. I'm sorry saying that did it. Goodbye my friend."
You signed on at 8ish my time and read it. No response. I don't know if I'll get to talk to you again. You never sign on during the weekend so now I get the weekend to worry and wonder and cry. I don't think you even halfway realize how much you mean to me. This isn't a joke to me and I think every time I open my mouth, I push you away. I just don't know what to do any more. I thought you wouldn't freak. I didn't think we'd break. I am scared. I wish I knew what to do and what you were thinking...
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