Well I'm not sure what happened with day 2. It doesn't look like it was published so when I polish it it came in on the wrong day but whatever I'll have to ignore it since hopefully I'm the only one that will see it.
I'm trying to grapple with the thought that maybe I'm just not that important to him. He will never break the fourth wall nor will be write me an email. Rob treats Jennifer better in that regard. Heck he's said he loved her. Adam, well I'm not holding out faith that he will. If he loved me, this wouldn't be such a detrimental issue. It's the weekend so he's not on. I've no idea what he will do or say on Monday. I'm scared. I keep sending well wishes and thoughts his direction. I keep asking for him not to forget me. There was a time where I think he really seemed to have affection and desire for me. It seemed like he couldn't wait to talk to me. Was that just him needing an online booty call? Is that what I am to him? Please Lord don't let my fears have merit.
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